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Just reacting

Juris didn’t have many obvious lingering signs of his Viet Nam experience, but he first got back readjustment to city life was tough: “I had trouble sleeping. I got a walkup apartment on First Avenue and 58th Street – UTB, Under the Bridge. I found it hard to sleep, so I’d have to go to the park overlooking the river. There I could sack out. I had to be outside. All these things you don’t expect. Manhole covers make this clunk-clunk that sounds just like a mortar coming out and you find yourself on your knee suddenly tying your shoe because you want to be in the ground. You’re not even thinking, you’re just reacting. There’s almost no fear with it, just a reaction. It’s that fast. And then, the ridiculousness that on the Upper East Side in Manhattan they still had DC current running through some kind of cables under the ground, which generated a tremendous amount of heat, and in the summer, the manhole covers would go bang straight in the air and then come clanging down. Some of the manhole covers right by my little walkup apartment decided to do this and I found myself halfway into the wall one night. I couldn’t sleep and had to go back to the park where there were no manhole covers.”